Third month on the current year and I haven't actually written anything of value. Life has been really possessive of me lately, and there isn't much I would do about it even if there is anything I could do about it. But it has been a good kind of possessiveness. I have so many things to do, with not that much time - and that's great because it reminds me that I have a job. That I am blessed in that sense. There are people out there who have to scour for food an entire day only to go to bed hungry anyway. So yeah, it's great to have things to do all the time, it's great to have a job. It's great to get paid for doing something you love. Alhamdulillah for that.
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This is my first entry for the year. Nothing impressive. I'm just trying to get back to writing. It's been awful, you know - not writing. So here I am, trying to rehab myself into blogging. Rehab. That's just how bad it is. I'm a teacher. I don't get to properly assist and motivate my students in their writing if I don't write. I'd be talking crap (like some teachers I know) if the kids come and see me about their essays if I'm no writer myself - and I'm not even risking that, no. So yeah. I'm renurturing the habit. Not a bed of roses but I don't really have a choice. If I don't write, my kids are gonna suck. So basically.
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I've encountered some really very disgusting people in these few months. People who hate on school kids (crappy teachers), people who hate on other people's success (terrible people with no life), people who criticize everyone and everything and claim that nobody accepts them for who they are (friendless betches), people who hate happy people (bitter betches) and also people who turn down advices because they hate everything and everyone (pathetic idiots). And these people actually helped me see myself in a different light. I promise to You, Allah, that unless I must choose the other for the sake of people I care about (and I hope I'd never have to) - I will always choose good. Yeah. So solemn OK.
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CS Lewis said something about how a woman's heart should be so close to God that a man has to chase Him in order to find her and I think that's just brilliant. It's basically 'a good man will end up with a good woman' presented in a prettier string of words. So yay CS Lewis, but let's not be close to God JUST to get guys - prioritize, people. Prioritize. There are more important things.
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And it's really not nice, seeing your dark side. I can't unsee it, nor can I do anything about it.
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It's lunchbreak. I need to go back to my notes now. Statistical Analysis is a freaking demon.
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